‘People often ask whether we were surprised to learn we were having twins at our 12 week scan. In some ways we were, but in many ways we were not; because 6 months prior to that pregnancy I had also been pregnant with twins - but that time only for 8 weeks.
I can’t actually remember lots about that first twin pregnancy loss because at the time we had a 2 and 4 year old - life was busy and we had to keep going for them. Having children already meant I knew what a pregnancy should end with- but we chose to be grateful for what we had, rather than dwell too much on what we had lost. My husband and I are Christians and a big part of our faith is that we have a hope in something more; something - or rather someone - bigger than ourselves. That doesn’t mean I didn’t feel every emotion under the sun at the time. But there is a verse in the bible that says
Faith is being sure of what we hope for - and certain of what we do not see.
For us we held onto those words and God’s plans for our life, over our own plans. We held onto hope.
I’m always thankful that we didn’t have to wait long to be pregnant again as I’m only too aware that this isn’t the case for everyone. Each year I remember our other twin pregnancy around the time the pregnancy ended and the time they would have been born and while the sense of loss isn’t there any more; I hope I always think of them.
Our second set of twins are twin boys, now aged 7.’