Grieving
Grieving for what could of been.
Grieving for what was taken.
Grieving for the the warmth in my arms.
That sweet smell of baby love.
For I am here but wanting to be there.
Emptiness in my left arm but joy on my right.
Wishing I got to hold you one more time.
Sweet baby girl, you are mine,
but had to share you in Heaven for this time.
Protect us from harm, my sweet Angel,
mommy is longing to be with you forever.
In my heart I will hold you,
every day and night I’ll think of you—
wishing you’d appear in my dreams.
Till we meet again,
my heart will beat once again.
By Marisela Garcia in memory of her daughter Amarie Isabella
Baby Footprints
These are my footprints,
So perfect and so small.
These tiny footprint
Never touched the ground at all.
Not one tiny footprint,
For now I have wings.
These tine footprints were meant
for other things.
You will hear my tiny footprints,
In the patter of the rain.
Gentle drops like angel’s tears,
Of joy and not from pain.
You will see my tiny footprints,
In each butterflies’ lazy dance.
I’ll let you know I’m with you,
If you just give me the chance.
You will see my tiny footprints,
In the rustle of the leaves.
I will whisper names into the wind,
And call each one that grieves.
Even though I’m gone right now,
We will never be apart,
Because I have left my tiny footprints
Safe within your heart.
Author Unknown
Oh Precious, Tiny, Sweet Little One
Oh Precious, Tiny, Sweet Little One
You will always be to me
So perfect, pure, and innocent
Just as you were meant to be.
We dreamed of you and your life
And all that it would be.
We waited and longed for you to come
And join our family.
We never had the chance to play,
To laugh, to rock, to wiggle.
We long to hold you, touch you now,
And listen to you giggle.
I'll always be your mother
He'll always be your dad.
You will always be our child,
The child that we had.
But now you're gone…but yet you're still here
We sense you everywhere.
You are our sorrow and our joy,
There's love in every tear.
Just know our love goes deep and strong,
We'll forget you never—
The child we had, but never had,
And yet, we’ll have forever.
Unknown Author
Little Snowdrop
The world may never notice
If a Snowdrop doesn’t bloom,
Or even pause to wonder
If the petals fall too soon.
But every life that ever forms,
Or ever comes to be,
Touches the world in some small way
For all eternity.
The little one we long for
Was swiftly here and gone.
But the love that was then planted
Is a light that still shines on.
And though our arms are empty,
Our hearts know what to do.
Every beating of our hearts
Says that we love you.
Author unknown
A Mother's Grief
You ask me how I'm feeling, but do you really want to know? The moment I try telling you, you say you have to go.
How can I tell you, what it's been like for me I am haunted, I am broken by things that you don't see.
You ask me how I'm holding up, but do you really care? The second I try to speak my heart, you start squirming in your chair.
Because I am so lonely, you see, no one comes around, I'll take the words I want to say and quietly choke them down.
Everyone avoids me now, because they don't know what to say They tell me I'll be there for you, then turn and walk away.
Call me if you need me, that's what everybody said, But how can I call you and scream into the phone, my child is dead.
No one will let me say the words I need to say, Why does a mothers grief scare everyone away?
I am tired of pretending as my heart pounds in my chest, I say things to make you comfortable, but my soul finds no rest.
How can I tell you things, that are too sad to be told, of the helplessness I feel inside I am too afraid to be bold.
If you really love me, and I believe you do, if you really want to help me, here is what I need from you.
Sit down beside me, reach out and take my hand, Say "My friend, I've come to listen, I want to understand."
Just hold my hand and listen that's all you need to do, And if by chance I shed a tear, it's alright if you do too.
Author unknown
Little Bumble Bee
I lived my life inside you
Cocooned in all your love
So mummy, daddy, please don’t cry
I’m still with you, just up above.
I felt your every heartbeat
It’s my sweetest melody
And for every heavenly bedtime
The angels play it back to me.
I know how much that I am wanted
I feel so very blessed
Of all the mummy’s and daddy’s in all the world
I got the very best!
You think of me in all your waking hours
And on those sleepless nights
Just look out the window and you’ll find me
The brightest star, the most dazzling light.
I’m that little breeze in the summer
And I’m the birds singing in the trees
I’m the rainbow in the sky
So that you remember we are always together.
I know how much it hurt your soul
When we had to say goodbye
But I’m not gone, i’m always here
I’m your sweet little bubble bee.
For James - Harley Cunningham
By Amy Farquahar in memory of her son Alfie James Farqhar
Look for me in rainbows
Time for me to go now, I won’t say goodbye;
Look for me in rainbows, way up in the sky.
In the morning sunrise when all the world is new,
Just look for me and love me, as you know I loved you.
Time for me to leave you, I won’t say goodbye;
Look for me in rainbows, high up in the sky.
In the evening sunset, when all the world is through,
Just look for me and love me, and I’ll be close to you.
It won’t be forever, the day will come and then
My loving arms will hold you, when we meet again.
Time for us to part now, we won’t say goodbye;
Look for me in rainbows, shining in the sky.
Every waking moment, and all your whole life through
Just look for me and love me, as you know I loved you.
Just wish me to be near you,
And I’ll be there with you.
Music and lyrics: Conn Bernard (1990). Vicki Brown
This is the month…
This is the month I thought I was going to meet you
A question I did not ask as if the pendulum knew
This was the month I thought I was going to meet you
Intuitively feeling there was not one baby but two
This was the month I thought I was going to meet you
Anticipating Christmas I would be holding you
This was the month I thought I was going to meet you
Scans confirmed weeks were ahead by a few
This was the month I thought I was going to meet you
Twins were confirmed, in my heart I felt I knew
This was the month I thought I was going to meet you
I believed and so desperately hoped for this to be true
This was the month I thought I was going to meet you
Sadly, this did not happen, born before you were due
This was the month I thought I was going to meet you
I felt my body had betrayed you
This was the month I was going to meet you
We could hear your little hearts beat but could not save you
This was the month I thought I was going to hold you
Alive in my arms, not one baby but two
This was not the month I thought it was going to be
Our babies born and buried, no presents for them to open under the tree
This was not the month I believed would be filled with so much joy
Wondering what gender, would they be the same or maybe a girl and a boy!
This was the month I thought I was going to meet you
These memories are not the ones I imagined but so sadly they are true
This was the month I thought I was going to meet you
It was not, but in my heart I forever hold you.
Kate Baker-Loveday
I heard your voice in the wind today
I heard your voice in the wind today
and I turned to see your face;
The warmth of the wind caressed me
as I stood silently in place.
I felt your touch in the sun today
as its warmth filled the sky;
I closed my eyes for your embrace
and my spirit soared high.
I saw your eyes in the window pane
as I watched the falling rain;
It seemed as each raindrop fell
it quietly said your name.
I held you close in my heart today
it made me feel complete;
You may have died…but you are not gone
you will always be a part of me.
As long as the sun shines…
the wind blows…
the rain falls…
You will live on inside of me forever
for that is all my heart knows.
Author unknown
Baby Loss Awareness
B ecoming pregnant
A surprise for some, others, a dream come true
B ecoming a parent, much to consider, expecting a life so new
Y earning, anticipating and hoping, imagining life together
L ove, like no other
O vercoming fears, the excitement of becoming a father and mother
S ignificant and sacred, a uniquely special time for many…
S o much joy and with big changes on the way thoughts in preparation are plenty
A nd then… the awareness something is wrong
W orry, aguish and soul wrenching pain
A broken and most fragile heart
R eeling with emotions, this is the saddest of song
E nd of a journey for one so small and only at the start
N o words can describe such a colossal and most desolate feeling
E ternal and beyond
S ome say time is a healer… but in a time only time can tell
S orrow and so much more… the experience of loss is nothing less than raw.
By Kate Baker-Loveday
Little
Little thoughts of my little one
Are never far from my mind
Of little fingers, little toes
Little tears I hide
Little eyes, little ears
Little chin and cheek
Little lips a little mouth
Little words never to speak
Little kisses on little heads
Little hands to hold dear
Little huggies and snugga bugga wuggies
How I long that you were here
Such little time we had you
But such a mark you left behind
A lasting love that will never go
A safe place I store it inside
All I have of you are little feet
i wear around my neck, I kiss them everyday
They give me strength I never thought
To face each brand new day
Little hearts cry little tears
For a brother they never knew
We send kisses and songs of moon and stars
Every night up to you
Little confused minds
That need help to understand
The hurt they feel and why
This is what god had planned
I’d do it all again my child
Knowing it would end this way
If I could hold you in my arms
And have just one more day
I’d hold you close and sing to you
Tell you stories of wonderful things
Of mermaids and dinosaurs
And all that life can bring
Little life, never to grow old
Little hands never to hold
Little memories I’ll never have of my little man
The time we had was little
But I cling to what I can
Wait for me child in the clouds
My time here is not long
There’s people here that need me
My work here is not done
But when it is I’ll be there
And off we will go
On our adventures on dragon's backs
And playing in the snow
Butterfly kisses and nosey nose
And all my love I will bring
Endless hugs and perfect days
Of all those little things
By Rosie McKenna in memory of her son Noah
Baby loss awareness week
Baby loss awareness week
Please don't be ashamed to speak
A week for some, a lifetime for others
Although they're not here, we are still mothers
For those of us whos scars run deep
With a heart that stings and eyes that weep
I wish for all that you'll never know,
This heartache, pain and deep sorrow
By Katie Hudson
Emptiness
Emptiness inside,
emptiness in the crib,
Phantom flutters here and there,
make me believe.
Why did this happen?
To someone who cares so deep?
Arms full of joy, but grieving within.
Lord give me strength to carry on for him.
For he is the “one who rejoices” and
she’s my “beloved wished for child”.
Twins formed together,
and together they will be,
one in Heaven and one in Earth,
protecting mommy in all she needs.
By Marisela Garcia in memory of her daughter Amarie Isabella
A Father's Grief
It must be very difficult
To be a man in grief,
Since "men don't cry" and "men are strong,"
No tears can bring relief.
It must be very difficult
To stand up to the test,
And field the calls and visitors
So she can get some rest.
They always ask if she's alright
And what she's going through.
But seldom take his hand and ask,
"My friend, but how are you?"
He hears her crying in the night
And thinks his heart will break.
He dries her tears and comforts her,
But "stays strong" for her sake.
It must be very difficult
To start each day anew.
And try to be so very brave-
He lost his child too.
Author unknown
Stars
Those stars that twinkle in the sky
Never use to make me cry
But now two of those stars that twinkle bright
Are my twins that shine tonight
By Katie Hudson
I Spy
I Spy in the ice-blue January snow,
With the footprints down below,
Beyond the soft foggy grey
February’s snowdrops come to play
And under March’s kinder sun
Where daffodils begin their fun,
Among the April lambs that skip
And each unfurling leaf and pip
In the sweet pink blossoms of May
With blackbirds hopping on display
And the laughter of a summer rose
Bathing in June’s sun, we doze
Under a honey midsummer moon,
With July’s busy bees that swoon
Over an August lavender haze
And rolling, salty waves
Where September’s sun-blessed berries
See the squirrels making merry,
Among the gold and orange leaves
Of October’s creaking trees
Up in November’s crackling breeze
Soaring with a rocket’s fizzy sneeze,
In December’s twinkling jewel-black sky,
An angel, I did spy.
By Marianne Andriot
Memories of our Little One at Christmas
Does Heaven have a Christmas tree
for the little boys and girls
too far away for Santa's sleigh
to reach with treats and toys?
A tree that's hung with moonbeams, stars
and real, shining angel hair
for the precious little children
who all live in heaven's care?
Are you filled with wonder
at its branches, all aglow
with the tears of those who miss you
on this earth, far down below?
For we hope and pray you're playing
with the angels, having fun
but please don't forget we love you
Happy Christmas, Little One.
Author unknown
Forever in our hearts
Today to others, is just a day
But to us today is so much more
Instead of wiping the tears away
Happiness should be at our door
We should be tucking you both in bed
God entrusted this to the angels instead
You were due to be in our arms this day
Forever in hearts will you always stay ❤️
By Katie Hudson
The Rose Beyond the Wall
A rose once grew
Where all could see,
Sheltered beside
A garden wall,
And as the days passed
Swiftly by,
It spread its branches,
Straight and tall…
One day, a beam of light
Shone through
A crevice that had
Opened wide ~
The rose bent gently
Toward its warmth
Then passed beyond
To the other side…
Now, you who deeply
Feel its loss,
Be comforted ~ the rose blooms there ~
Its beauty even greater now,
Nurtured by
God’s own loving care.
Author unknown
A Little Light
A little light to shine for you,
On this special day,
Whilst we dream that we could hold you,
And watch you laugh and play,
These dreams are but a whisper,
And they gently float above,
Somewhere, somehow they’ll find you,
And wrap you in our love.
Author unknown
Too Soon
This was a life that had hardly begun
No time to find your place in the sun
No time to do all you cold have done
But we love you enough for a lifetime
No time to enjoy the world and its wealth
No time to take like down from the shelf
No time to sing the song of yourself
Though you had enough love for a lifetime
Those who live long endure sadness and tears
But you’ll never suffer the sorrowing years
No betrayal, no anger, no hatred, no fears,
Just love – only love – in your lifetime.
They say there is a reason
They say there is a reason, they say that time will heal,
But neither time nor reason will change the way I feel.
For no-one knows the heartache that lies behind our smiles.
No-one knows how many times we have broken down and cried.
We want to tell you something, so there won’t be any doubt:
You’re so wonderful to think of, but so hard to be without.
Author unknown
We thought of you today,
But that is nothing new
We thought of you yesterday
And will tomorrow, too
We think of you in silence
And make no outward show
For what it meant to lose you
Only those who love you know
Remembering you is easy
We do it every day
It's the heartache of losing you
That will never go away.
Author unknown
Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder where you both are
Are you watching from way up there?
I often sit and gaze up or stare
I still miss you more than anyone can believe
Certain people expect me to no longer grieve
A year has passed since we said goodbye
This doesn't mean I don't still cry
The tears often trickle down my face
Sometimes they roll at a rapid pace
But not everyday is filled with sorrow
I hope to think of you and smile tomorrow
By Katie Hudson
Noah
It will get better I hear them say
Will the pain ever go away?
Seven months you lay beneath my heart
I loved you from the very start
Such plans and hopes we had in store
Plans were took and are no more
Little fingers, little toes
Butterfly kisses and nosey nose
Empty cots in the corner with no little head
I drag myself from this bed
Downward stares and saddened glance
My darling boy never had a chance
Red eyes and endless tears
Stolen dreams and stolen years
Broken heart I try to hide
A little white box I carried with pride
My kisses and hugs you will never know
I will never get to watch you grow
They say you are and angel now, high above
Can you still feel my love?
I look for signs to reassure me
Rainbows, butterflies and the honey bee
Rustling leaves blowing in the breeze
Winds that whistle through the trees
Speak to me child, say my name
I live in hope that we will meet again
Come to me in my dreams where we can go
A special place you and I only know
Butterfly kisses and nosey nose
Little fingers and little toes
No pain, no hurt, we can be free
Together again my baby and me
by Rosie McKenna